HI Crystal,
I am sorry you are in so much pain,and are having a hard time getting a hold of it today, I did that once in the beginning, I was on narcotics for a while, so in my head I thought" I wonder`how bad is my pain? do I really need this much narcotics"...so I did not take them for the day, well let me tell you that was the 1 and only time I ever did that, I ended upin the hospital and got in major crap from the Dr. I think Crystal you have to realize that you do have to take Narcotics for the rest of your life, at least I know I have too, and that was a pretty hard thing to swallow, but thadoes not make me an ADDICT, I am dependent but huge diffrence, I think we have to accept our fate and some how try and be grateful for the little things in life, some people have to take insulin 4-5 times a day, we have to take narcotics 4-5 times a day, and that's what helps us live and get through each day and there is NOTHING wrong with that!!, I hope you can get a hold of your pain and have a good weekend, and just remember your not alone, take care :)
Tracey
DX; Loin Pain Hematuria Syndrome, A Very Rare Painful Kidney Disease,No Cure for this disease at this time, only thing is to Control Pain,
RX, Fentanyl Patch,Oxycodone, Amitriplyne,Ace Inhibitors