Tried to deal with the pain, bad idea vent!!

Hello to all, I tried to wait to take my pain meds today, sometimes I cannot stand the thought that I need meds to get through my day.  The pain hit me hard at work and I just wanted to get outside of myself.  I decied to take my narcs to be able to have relief.  Sometimes I think that I can think my way through the pain and tell myself it is not there, but it is always there aahhh.  I know you all deal with it too, I am just not dealing well today.  I hope that all of you are.  Thanks for listening.

HI Crystal,

I am sorry you are in so much pain,and are having a hard time getting a hold of it today, I did that once in the beginning, I was on  narcotics for a while, so in my head I thought" I wonder`how bad is my pain? do I really need this much narcotics"...so I did not take them for the day, well let me tell you that was the 1 and only time I ever did that, I ended upin the hospital and got in major crap from the Dr. I think Crystal you have to realize that you do have to take Narcotics for the rest of your life, at least I know I have too, and that was a pretty hard thing to swallow, but thadoes not make me an ADDICT, I am dependent but huge diffrence, I think we have to accept our fate and some how try and be grateful for the little things in life, some people have to take insulin 4-5 times a day, we have to take narcotics 4-5 times a day, and that's what helps us live and get through each day and there is NOTHING wrong with that!!, I hope you can get a hold of your pain and have a good weekend, and just remember your not alone, take care  :)

Tracey

Tracey,

Thank you for your reply, I appreciate it. I know that I should take it sometimes, I just think maybe I can get through it being positive. I also know that I am not an addict, but it is a frustrating reality to accept, which I know was hard for you as well. They help with the pain, but I think they make it hard to concentrate and the side effects sometimes are frustrating. I know right now that's o.k., do you feel any different with the pain meds. I guess I just feel like they do make us feel different numb just kinda weird, but it is better than the pain. I hope you have a good weekend as well, take care.

Crystal

2 much,

 

I understand totally and you are right, staying in front of the pain is always a better idea.  For now I have to accept it and just live with the side effects.  I just feel my mind is not as clear as it was, but life is better and more functional with them definately.  I am having radiofrequency to kill the nerves on August 20th, hopefully they will stay dead this time.  I appreciate your concern and hope you have a good weekend.

 

Crystal