Unfortunately, my disability cannot be corrected by surgery. There was an internal procedure that they could try to correct it, but it's already been tried and failed. I've been going through this for four years now and my specialist tells me there's nothing left to be done, and it's something I am going to have to learn to live with. The organ affected cannot be transplanted.
To answer mexximelt, I choose not to share my disability on a public forum. I do not see how that is relevant since the issue here is the chronic pain.
I think I have decided to talk to my doctor and tell him that my meds are not helping like they should, and I have found that I need to double up on them for them to be effective. I will let my doctor take it from there. I just have to pray that he will work with me and not take my medicine away altogether. I know I messed up, and my doctor would have every right to refuse to prescribe to me in the future. I am mainly just upset with myself that I let my pain control me. It is just so frustrating to know that all it would take to help that terrible pain is just to take one more pill than I should. But that one more pill leads to another extra pill next time, and before you know it, the meds are gone in half the time they should be.
I have another question...I have been on pain medicine for the past two years...I have heard of something called a drug holiday that is used to lower a person's tolerance who is on chronic pain meds. Can anyone tell me about this? Does it sound like something that could be useful for me?
Thanks for all the support. I appreciate it. I am still so nervous and stressed. I hate the way I feel and it's all because I am dependent on these darn medications. :( Hugs to others who are dealing with this.