thank you guys who think i am a nice lady. wow, it's been a long, loooooong, time since i've heard some comments like that. so long in fact, i don't remember the last time someone gave me a compliment like i've gotten from my friends here. i truly think that no one can understand what chronic pain does to a person, until they live it. i wish that EVERYONE could live a week in our shoes, so that they would be more compassionate. I especially think nurses and doctors should have to sit in an ER and be labeled a "drug seeker" and be denied pain medicine so they know how we feel when we are treated badly by some not-so-nice health care workers. i know that sounds cruel, but that's how i feel.
i just am not sure what is going to happen to me. i have tried to find support. i have contacted every charitable organization in the world it seems, all with no results. i applied for welfare, and was denied. i applied for food stamps, and was denied. how can a mom to two young children, with NO INCOME, and no supporting spouse be DENIED food stamps?? am i supposed to eat out of the garbage can? i don't even have a car to live it. once the house is foreclosed on (a few more days) i am homeless.
i just don't know how i am going to ever get back on my feet. my credit is shot, i mean, my life is one big *%(*% mess. oh, how did i ever end up here? i just don't understand how all this can happen is such short period of time. what did i ever do to deserve this? i sure would like to know that.
but thank you to all of you that have been so kind to me, i really appreciate it. i haven't heard such nice words in a long, long time.
DX: DDD, DJD, HNP L2-S1, OA, OP, intractable pain, severe asthma, COPD, migraines, endometriosis, uterine ca, PCOS, metabolic syndrome, chronic epstien-barr virus, fibromyalgia, depression, anxiety, PTSD, avoidant personality disorder, social phobia, SLE, connective tissue disorder
MEDS: MS Contin 100mg q 6; MSIR 30mg q 6 PRN; Celebrex 200mg QD; Actiq 600mcg q 6 PRN; Lamactil 25mg BID; Klonopin 0.5mg BID, Cymbalta 60mg QD;
Ventolin 2 puffs q 6; Advair 500/50 one puff q 12, Multivitamin