Thank you for the warm welcome. I know that ovarian cysts are common. My HEAD knows this, it is my emotions that have such a vivid imagination.
See, what scares me is this-I know I listed my family history of cancer. Like I said, I lost my mom when I was 16 to a brain tumor. She was only 44. Five years older than I am right now. I've always thought that that would be MY number-44. So when I turned 34, I was like, "10 more years", etc...so when I read this on the MRI-I thought, "the prophecy is doomed to come TRUE!" I know I am being dramatic-that is my personality.
What sent me to have the MRI in the first place was major lumbar and hip pain. I had 2 neck surgeries to repair a torn disc (1st time) and 2nd time, to repair the screwup the first doctor made. number 2 was a success, although I still have neck pain from time to time. I can live with that. But this lower back crap is really getting to be too much. It's affecting ever aspect of my life. I work at a desk all day, I can't be still cause of the pain in my legs-I have to come home and lie down for at least an hour every evening. I have 2 teenagers and a fiance that I live with. Of course, I have my domestic duties that they are all pretty helpful with, but I am a control freak in addition to my dramatic-ness. And my job-my boss gives me the proverbial eye roll at the entire situation. Always has-he treats me like crap! I have to park in handicapped, and I limp all the time. I feel so old and worn out. I can't sleep worth a hooey-I often have so much pain in my legs that I have to use my hands to move them into a different position throughout the night. Today, I spent ALL DAY at my daughter's high school cause there was a band competition that her band hosted, and I just love that stuff-being a former band geek myself. I have to go!! My daughter is a senior and I can't miss a thing. My mom got sick just before I entered high school, and frankly, I have zero memories of her attending even a football game of mine. She was too sick, and then the summer between 10th and 11th grade, she died. I can't not be there for my kids. There are still 5 more band competitions to go. I will be at as many as can be. And all of the FB games. I take a beach chair, and that helps, but it isn't enough, but it will have to do.
So now, I am facing at least a trip to the OB/GYN asap, they doing whatever it is they will do to check out the cyst, and whatever they have to do to possibly get rid of it. I'm already on BC pills-I thought that would have possibly prevented it. There is one thing with my body I could always count on-my reproductive system was always great. I got pregnant when I wanted to-one try each kid-no problems, EVER. I could depend on that!! Now, it is like that part of me is failing me. I am not breathing a word of this to my kids until I have some news-one way or another. I can't worry them about something that may be absolutely nothing.
Thank you for listening to me harp about this. I just don't know if I can face another problem!! Even something this small-with any luck, it will be nothing.
I'll be making that OB/GYN appt first thing monday, hopefully, they can see me asap. I have never been there, my first appt with this group was end of november. I hope, being a new patient-they can work me in.
Thank you all so much. It's great to have found a place that everyone understands. I'll keep everyone posted!