I'm 24 years old. I've been suffering with chronic pain for over 5 years now with little to no help. I was diagnosed with Rheumatoid Arthritis and Fibromyalgia 2 years ago. It had been manageable in the past which is why I started my schooling back up again. I am shooting for a music education degree so that I can teach middle school choir. But due to recent, unexplainable back injury...I've had to drop most of my classes, which has put my husband and I in quite a situation seeing as we have no insurance and used much of the funds received from my financial aid on doctor's appointments. Talked to many of the "higher ups" about
this, at the school..and was assured that I wouldn't have to pay any of it back given that I had adequate medical documentation. But it's gonna be a long, arduous process. Going back to my unexplained back injury..I don't really know what happened, but 2 months ago, I was exercising on my elliptical at a slow and steady pace since my joints have proven to be pretty darn fragile, when I noticed a deep, stabbing, itching pain in my upper back that radiated down my spine. So I stopped immediately and haven't exercised since. Every day that passes, the pain is worse and more debilitating. I tried a chiro, saw him for a month, twice a week...when he was working on me, I felt good..but as little as 30 minutes later..the pain would return with a vengeance. It was as if I hadn't even been worked on. So...my hubby and I (having no insurance) have been paying out of pocket whenever possible to see doctor after doctor which has been a horrible experience. Reading the rest of the posts on this forum, I know now I am not the only one getting this crappy treatment. This is how the majority of my "appointments" would go...
"Ok, all your muscles in your back are spasming and in knots....I'll prescribe you this muscle relaxer, Skelaxin.."
"no, I've taken it before and it didn't help..even made me terribly ill to my stomach.."
"Well, I can't prescribe you anything else cause all the muscle relaxers we prescribe are similar to Skelaxin..."
"Well, the pain is unbearable...what about
a diagnostic test as opposed to a band-aid fix?"
"We don't do that for people without insurance..but I can prescribe you some 40 Vicodin..."
So we take the vicodin which doesn't even TOUCH the pain, but is better than nothing...sometimes....and leave with me in tears. I consider myself to be a tough
cookie, but I've been weeping almost everyday from the fear of what's going on with my body. We have a consultation with a disability lawyer next week, but I'm wary about
it since we haven't been able to see many doctors due to lack of funds...and still no diagnostic tests have been done regarding my back injury. When it got really bad last month, (pretty much where I am now), my hubby insisted we go to the ER...when we got to the examination room, I sighed with relief thinking I was finally gonna get some answers and some relief from the pain. The doctor comes in and the first thing out of his pompous mouth was.."Do you know what an ER is actually used for?" We looked at him wide eyed and I immediately started to cry again knowing that not even an emergency room would help me. I sobbingly told him..."look, I can't even move really...I can't turn my head.." he interrupted me with.."Oh you can move fine.." We told him about
my previous diagnosis and the details of my current back pain. He told me just looking at me that I wasn't gonna die, and he could have security escort us out if that's the way we wanted it. So, I swallowed my pride and apologized for offending him (I never said anything to POSSIBLY offend him) and pretty much begged for him to take me seriously. So he prescribed 40 vicodins and discharged us...with a paper that said if your back pain becomes worse, return to the hospital... blah blah blah bull crap.. I think I covered everything, there might be more.
I sing with a blues/noise/rock/punk type a band called Boxcar Satan...haven't performed with them though in a while due to this injury. I've been depressed and hopeless with all this...especially being forced to drop most of my classes at school. I don't sleep. There is no position, sitting, standing, or laying down that is not unbearably painful. I've been meditating...doing light stretches...taking some supplements, doing what I can to be proactive but it's getting more and more difficult every day.
So what about
it, guys....wanna come to my pity party?