I've been on one opioid or another for chronic back pain from wrecks while motorcycle stunting and racing since 1999. And from some injuries from working with the phone company years ago.
in the last year my body has started to adapt to the pills, and my dosages can't keep up so i find myself taking 2 to 4 more pills a day (at minimum) than prescribed, just to barely get through a day with a low pain level. This starts to put me short on meds every month and for that one week i'm in the worst shape i have ever been in as far as feeling "sick". it's hell IMO
When i run out, I find that i wake up dizzy and my body tingles all over, I get cold sweats adn hot flashes and then there's the vomiting and diarhea that go on and on untill i can get back into the Doc. I can't sleep, my legs jump uncontrollably and i can't stop moving my feet. i can't sleep, barely eat and darn sure don't want to see people in anyway shape or form. Last month the psychological effects got so bad the once long gone thoughts of ending my life were back in full swing for a the duration of day 3 with no meds (Luckily i have a very strong will to live and a very supportive family)
How long can this last and is it possible to detox on your own some how? I've managed to only have to go 4 days at most with out something to help cope, but jesus, i don't want to move or have my Doc retire ( which he plans on soon ) and then be stuck feeling like mentioned for who knows how long ( not to mention the pain) IF i wasn't self employed as a painting contractor this would have surely cost me my job anywhere else and i'm in the process of being hired to work for the gocernment in a classified position and don't want to have this happen while working there by any means. It's pretty much the 2nd best job offer i've ever had.
My doc is a very good person who cares a lot about my pain. He's actually the head of a psychiatry dept. at our local university med center. Through exchange of records wth my surgeons he writes my pain meds (oxycodone 15mg 4x a day) and my valium ( i hardly ever take valium any more though ) the surgeons don't like giving me meds and it costs way more to walk into their offices anyway.
I started seeing him due to the suicidal thoughts i was having because of the limitations that were put on my life at such a young age. Also knowing that it ruined my chances of becoming a Police officer which was a long time goal of mine, i was in bad shape and needed his services. ( i was 20 when i had my first major back injury in 1997 ) SInce the first accident i've learned to cope and continue life the best i can, I still race motorcycles and perform at stunt shows. I am almost married, Own and run a construction business and have my hands in a hundred other business ventures and prototyping processes for specialty parts for motorcycles and disabled people that wish to ride them.
Also, he has tried to get me in with a pain doc for well over a year and there are none locally that are taking new patients we've tried 5 different ones so far. ( except one place that only does epidural injections i'm out of luck). He says he would prefer for some one else to write me Oxycontin because he just feels it doesn't look good for a psych doc to write that heavy of a narcotic. Since my codones only last about 2-3 hours at best anymore. But, since we can't find a pain doc that's taking patients i'm in a very tough spot (at least for me anyway, i know there's people a lot worse off) *arghhhhh* (BTW, It was my Doc's idea for me to go on contins ..not by my request ) BUt he wont' write them :(
Well this post is long, and thoughts are scattered through out. hopefully you can make sense of it and offer some advice on the 2 things i'm looking for input on.
1.) withdrawals and how to get over or around them
2.) how to find a doc that will write Contins since the pain clinics arent taking new patients and i've decided against' epidurals since i'm completely un-insured ( and they cost A LOT ) plus i still owe over 10 grand on my last surgery that i had on my left leg ( it's been rebuilt from knee to hip completely)