Mezz I'm not going to say a word about the reasons why you shouldn't do this, you know them, that's clear. My question is isn't there something else that you can take? There must be a anti-depressant that you can take that would help you be a nicer person? Find that calmness you desire. Sometimes you need to try different ones, find a combination of a few meds that would work...Try different things to find something else that will help you.
I have read about people who have found that when they take opioids that feel better, feel normal. It is a lacking of endorphins I believe so when they take these meds they feel better....Something you might want to google and read up on.Maybe they have a med which will help you.
I wish you all the luck in finding something that will help you-
PS--Here are a few web-pages that touch on what you have said in your above post..I hope this helps you--
Post Edited (aggscott) : 11/1/2007 6:59:49 PM (GMT-6)