Another "pain clinic" death.. here we go.

I just got home from seeing my PM dr and for those of you who do not know me I live in Tampa, Fl. I have 2 herniated discs in my upper spine/neck area along with a heck of a lot going on in my lower spine. I am having the typical cortisone shots/fleruoscopy and radiofrequency (i know those are all spelled wrong) between the next few days. So I call my mother to let her know the results and here comes the lecture. Apparently there was a pain clinic sting in Jacksonville, Fl due to an overdose death up there. You could go in and pay $100- $140 and get "whatever you wanted". I love my mother unconditionally- but lets start my day. I woke up at 4 am with pain, by 5 am I vomiting due to the pain, getting ready for the dr at 7:30... my dr. wasn't there so I had a 5 minute long conversation with a dr. I quite frankly think has the personality of my Electrolux. I decide that I am going to take off of work today because I really couldn't keep the nausia down. I call my mother and this is what I hear... "I don't want to bury you" "can't you see a regular dr?" "i'm scared you are addicted" "you are going to lose your job because of your abscenses" So now I am crying my eyes out, because there is nothing like hearing your mother pretty much sum me up to a loser. How do you make someone understand the pain that you deal with on a daily basis? I have been to holistic, chiropractors, masseues, acupuncturists, ER, PCPs and so on and so forth. There are just some areas where modern medication has to come in, and this is one of them. I understand her worry, but she should know me better than that.  And, I work for a Fortune 100 company, and I am under FMLA. So my job is fine. And now knowing this, that means things are going to get tougher down here for Pain Management drs. I tried to explain to her it is because of things like that happening that a regular PCP will not prescribe medications for people. I'm just having a bad day and just needed to talk to people I know can relate.

Hi Kttn,
I am usually on the fibromyalgia forum and I think that I have talked to you there, is that possible? I can understand what you are dealing with, it is no fun especially when you are in pain. Oh and I do have an old electrolux so I can kind of picture what this guy is like. ha ha
I believe with chronic pain that I probably by now have an addiction to pain killers. So what, I will have to take them for the rest of my life any way. This is CHRONIC, long term, and most likely forever.
I know it hurts you when your mom talks to you the way she did. You don't need the added stress, it will just make your pain worse, don't you think? Maybe for your benefit you should not talk to her about it or not comment much when she brings it up. I know that she cares about you but I don't think she understands what you are going through.
It is too bad that the addicted people who abuse drugs have to make it so much harder for people like us who need the medications.
So try to over look her comments and relax and avoid stress as much as you can until you can see your doctor that you were supposed to see. Once you are in a pain management system by one doctor, if you have to change to another, they usually pick up the same protocol that you were using.
Maybe you can download some information for her to read that will change her additude. Some people get something set in thier heads and are stubborn and wont see things your way. Or she could be in denial over it. But it sounds like you have some bad back problems that need pain management.
I hope I understood what you were saying and didn't just make a fool out of myself, it wouldn't be the first time.
I hope you have a painfree night with plenty of rest. Try to relax, you don't have to prove anything to anybody. Just do what you have to.
Hugs,
getting by

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fibromyalgia, chronic fatigue, clinically depressed and allergies

Post Edited (getting by) : 11/8/2007 10:22:45 PM (GMT-7)

Hi Everyone, I normally post on the hepatitis forum, but I came across this post and thought I should reply. My husband suffers from cirrhosis. He also has degeneritive disc disease among other problems with his neck and back. He has been taking pain medication for a few years now. I just wanted to let you know that I have been guilty of not being understanding when it came to my husbands pain. We were unaware of the cirrhosis and at times when he took the pain meds he would become very out of it. I thought he was taking to much. Since then I have learned a lot about cirrhosis and how the medication can build up in the body if the liver is not working properly. He is now on medication that helps his body expel the toxins that build up in his body. Most of the time he is fine now although due to the cirrhosis and hep C his mental ability will never be as it once was. I just wanted to thank you all for posting here and educating those of us that don't know what CP suffers go through. Even though my husband has said some of the exact same things that you have posted here it really helped me to hear it from others in the same boat. Thank you again.

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Butterflythree

There is always hope!

I don't know that everyone would agree, but addiction is certainly true in my case. I've been taking pain pills for years and and am most certainly physically addicted. I don't try to pretend otherwise. My family knows it as I am pretty forthcoming and they worry about me. I reassure them that I can be weaned off the meds and don't have any psychological benefit that would hamper the weaning process. In the meantime, this is a part of my story with chronic pain. Maybe this isn't reassuring, but it is certainly part of the issue.

And, FWIW, I go to a highly respected pain clinic and they take good ans proper care of me. I'm not getting pain meds for their financial (or other) benefit. There are reputable, non-homicidal pain docs around. As is typical of an overgrown government, the FDA puts a microscope on opiate-prescribing docs and persecutes them over-zealously. This leads to an unfair general perception of this medical specialty. It's quite a shame for those of us who need specialized care.

I'll get off my soapbox now.

Regards.
Stephanie

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Stephanie

Dx: FMS/CMP/DDD - 2 ACFs with more to follow, scoliosis, mis-aligned pelvis
Rx: Cymbalta, Flexeril, EC Naprosyn, Ambien CR, Vicodin 5/500, Kadian 60, Buspar, Xanax, Seravent, Albuterol, herbal supplements and vitamins, Lidocaine injections, and Botox injections