I too wanted to welcome you to HW. I am so glad you found us, but hate to hear that you are having the trouble that you are.
Oh, I do believe many of us suffer in silence, I sure do. I am tired of hearing it, so I know they are too. Yes, I was confronted a couple of summers ago by my son and was told by my son that I was nothing but an addict according to his Dad. My son was very angry with me when he came to the house that day. He would not talk to me or even look my way. I was on the backporch and he came outside for something. I confronted him about his attitude towards me. I explained the difference between an addict and someone who is dependant on their meds. Before doing so, I made him bring his Dad out on the porch because I was going to say this one time and one time only. I should not have had to defend myself to my family in my book. After that, no more wars about Mom's drugs, but I decided right then & there the less they know the better and I have kept it that way.
Of course my husband is one these that its like pulling hens teeth trying to get him to take a tylenol. He is very old school and ignorant when it comes to medicine. You are always suppose to suck it up and keep going. I did that exactly and lasted almost 18 months until I cratered one day.
You are wondering if your chill pill is working. Since you have been on it for several years, it may be time to try something else, or like you said see if they can bump the doseage somewhat. I was on 300mg of Effexor for a long time and it just got to where it was not cutting the mustard. So, my dr switched me to Lexapro and I have very well with it. I am a firm believer that after awhile our bodies do build up a tolerance to meds if we have been on them for quite awhile.
I do hope you will hang out with us. We have a really good group of peeps on this board. We learn so much from each other. No 2 cases are alike. Each person has his/her problems. It can be a lonely road thats for sure. Hugs, Susie