This is Kitt and Welcome to HealingWell and the Crohn's Forum. I am sorry to hear of your cancer and I can certainly understand why you are depressed.
We have a whole forum dedicated to depression:
The members in the depression forum live with depression daily and their stories are amazing. Please consider posting in that forum too. I know you will find the members in Depression supportive and knowledgable.
Again a warm welcome to HealingWell and stay with us my friend.