i just had an abnormal pap too. i was told that i have hpv and it is a strain that can cause cervical cancer. im haveing a colposcopy on march 4th. my gyn tols me that the abnormal cells were rare and showed a good chance that there woll be cancerous or pre cancerous cells. she said she wants me to be prepared. needless to say im completly freaked out. i understand how you are feeling. it is scary to think that you might have cancer, even though it is completly treatable. im also mad about
the hpv. never in my life have i not been "safe". she said with my comprimised immune system the chances of me getting hpv were high as well as developing cancer.
oh well, hang in there. i know its tough.