Bell - you should've been a psychiatrist! I like the way you think. Yes, there are lots of things I don't feel like I'm willing to fully "hear," and I realize that with how much I have invested in my education, I really need to focus on being the healthiest person I can. I don't know if it's a sense of hopelessness, uncertainty, rebellion, anger, loss of motivation, ignorance - probably all of those things, if we're being honest here - that is keeping me from being as proactive and assertive as possible.
Sometimes I feel like a mouse that has studied mousetraps my whole life, knows all of the interesting ways those traps work, knows the physics and the mechanics and everything, and then one day just walked right into one myself...and now that I'm stuck in it, it's like all that knowledge I had/have just vanished. It's hard to keep your wits about you when you're stuck in a very uncomfortable contraption like that.
I have plenty more to respond to, and Snipes, Fitz, Matthew and Navy and Yoga, my good friends, I appreciate your thoughts. You guys make me think more than any of my silly classmates, that's for sure. But if there's any hope that I will get up in time for class tomorrow I better haul my arse to bed for now!
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