Posted 4/20/2008 8:17 PM (GMT -7)
It's been a really hard lesson for me to learn as to who my real friends are and who just claim to be my friends when I'm feeling well. I know some people just can't be around someone who is sick and I totally understand that, but at the same time it would be nice if they kept their comments to themselves. I can't remember how many times I have heard that I must have done something to make myself sick. I ate the wrong food or I did too much or I didn't rest enough or whatever. It's all my fault. Last year when I had an infection after my bowel resection, I had one person tell me that he would not come see me in the hospital because he wasn't going to watch me kill myself because obviously, it was my fault that I got an infection. I finally had to give up trying to convince him that it wasn't my fault that I had an infection and that I wasn't going to die from it. I am a very empathetic person, so it's difficult for me to understand when others aren't. Life is hard, but I know this disease has made me a stronger person. And, I know who I can count on and who I can't.