Posted 4/22/2008 10:50 AM (GMT -6)
Thanks for the reply. I just don't want my husband to again back slide into pain and cramping. It's so hard to watch him in so much pain. I wish I could share it with him, but I can't really - not in any way other than to stand in the sidelines, hold his hand, and watch him suffer. I HATE THIS DISEASE. I guess I'm just a little emotional right now - I am 30 years old, and I feel like our happy life is over, that from now on, we will just have to endure life, rather than enjoy it. I'm trying to have more faith - believe that things will get better, and that we will grow stronger, and more capable of dealing with these situations, but sometimes, it is all just so overwhelming, so unbearable.
Sorry for the drama. I'll try to be more patient, and give Remicade the time it needs to help my husband. I am so hoping that the remicade will get him to remission and keep him there for a good long time, and that he can get off the steroids (I don't even know if they are helping).
Thanks for letting me vent a little. Once again, sorry for the little outburst.