Posted 5/10/2008 9:33 PM (GMT -6)
When I had to leave everything and everyone behind to protect my children....(we had the clothes on our backs and one little suitcase.)...it wasn't the beautiful home we had, the lovely furniture...the money...nothing mattered except keeping my children safe....but oh, how my heart ached for my mom. She had always been my strength...her sense of humour had gotten us through a difficult childhood, and she kept me strong with my own issues of abuse and the incest of my daughters. When we left, I felt like I had lost both my arms and legs. The ache in my heart never went away. I went 10 years without being able to see her or talk to her. 2 years ago, we finally were safe enough to get in touch with my family. Mom , my sister and dad came to visit. She was 80 years old then.... This week I have been crying so much, because I don't think I will every be able to see her again. She is 82 now and says she can't make that long trip again. It isn't safe for me to go back ....so we talk on the phone... I'm crying as I'm writing this.... I feel so much, for those of you who have already lost your moms...I'm dreading the day the phone rings and I get that awful news. ...but for now... I talk to her almost every day wich is such a blessing compared to not being to contact her for over 10 years.
She still makes me laugh .
Thank you for starting this thread....although it is a sad one , it is good to express our grief.
Blessings to all mothers .