Vicky, This dreadful disease can zap the life out of anyone. It is draining, and depressing and worst thing , it is chronic. You are not a bad person. This DD is bad. It takes the zip out of our doo-das! ...takes the joy out of life sometimes.
Please don't let this go on too long. It may be that you are anemic but I suspect that it may have something to do with depression. Are you taking anything for depression, anxiety. ? YOu have so much to deal with physically.... no wonder you are tired. Sometimes we just need to go on an anti-depressant for a little while, just to give us a little boost. I managed all these years to "put up a good front' and 'smile through everything. etc...and then my daughter tried to commit suicide and it knocked the wind from right under me. I couldn't pull myself up anymore...there was nothing but fatigue, and lack of joy....I finally agreed to take an anti-depressant(kicking and screaming that I was doing just fine without it, and that I thought it a sign of weakness if I gave in.)... but it isn't . It made a world of difference. I am still taking them, although I have tired to go off them a few times, and find that I just can't handle stress the way I used to....there have been just too many "bad things" to deal with over the years...my mind and body are weary.
Anyway.... I hope you get your zest for life back soon.... I am keeping you in my prayers dear Vicky...
51 yr.old retired RN,Crohn's D for last35 yrs..severe esophagitis, migraines,strictures,urethral stricture,depression,probable MS.,RLS, arthritis