I have been dx'd since 2006. I feel I have accepted and managed this disease pretty well over the last 2 years. I had a knee jerk response yesterday to a situation that made me realize that I am possibly still grieving. Inadequacy...now there is a word seated in fear & anxiety. But that's what I am feeling. I have always seen myself as multi-faceted, multi-talented, able to see the "broader" picture in life and sniff out the most deviling details in any thing I do. I have a positive attitude and a wonderful sense of humor that I refuse to give up to this disease.
Having said all that...where the heck did the knee jerk response come from! Was it due to my recent dx with Fibromyalgia as well? All of us with a chronic disease feel "beat up" from time to time and I had a bad weekend due to side effects of Humira and a Fibro flare. I generally try and be patient and kind to myself and try to do the things that make me feel productive even when I'm in a down period, however, I just can't seem to jump this hurdle. No, this isn't depression but it is very frustrating as I'm sure you can relate too. I can't afford therapy right now with college bills, tax man & the ever present meds breathing down my neck.
I'd appreciate any input and/or experiences you can share. You guys are my lifeline and I thank God each day that you're here! Just Another Day in Paradise!