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Date Joined Aug 2005
Total Posts : 42
   Posted 9/17/2008 7:25 PM (GMT -7)   
I'm so having such anxiety, I feel like I might die. Why do I have to have this new pain, Can't this disease just leave me alone. I'm sorry I feel like venting and I know I can do that here. I hate the tests, small bowel follow through tomorrow, I can't stand how I feel sometimes. The steroids certainly don't help a frame of mind. It doesn't help of course my financial life is scary to the point of food pantry tomorrow to feed our family of 5,( maybe Moms again, she is my constant savior) I'm going to have to add the wellbutrin back into my pill taking I suppose, as we all love to be dependent on pills *sigh*
but I'm having a hard time coping I guess. Whew I'm so glad I can just come here and post, ahhhhhhh I feel better already. I'm just hoping I'm not having an obstruction, and what if tomorrow they find it and I have to have surgery and for some strange reason I don't make it through something like that. I can't leave my kids yet. Fear is whats getting to me. I wonder if I should take a xanax, I really should not I suppose, I dont know, I wish I could take one in the morning though. Going into the hospital gives me anxiety. Actually I'm going to cancel the endoscopy they want to do. They will have this SBFT, a scheduled CT scan a endoscopy, and they wanted to do the endo, but I can't do it again, not after waking up in the middle of the last one? Can't they do a capsule one anyway if they really need one after those three tests, but its hard to say that to the Dr. of course, well my Dr. anyway. I'm thinking I should get a new one as he pretty much asks me what I want to do about my disease anyway. I'm supposed to start Methotrexate, but I am now having second thoughts. I've been thinking about the diets that have been mentioned and I just got some supplements and probiotics. I, like all of us always want to take the less extreme route. I am just annoyed at the seriousness of what the side effects are of these heavy class ( I think) of drugs. To top it all off I have some lady issues going on. Ouch ouch ouch, this is a weird pain, crap its scaring me. Well I'll try a cup of tea and see how it goes I guess. Thanks for letting me vent, and as usual being the place of most comfort for me, Dawn☼

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Date Joined Mar 2007
Total Posts : 4527
   Posted 9/18/2008 11:25 AM (GMT -7)   
Hi Dawn I know we spend alot of time worrying and things work out. So try not to worry and just take it one day at a time. Sometimes it just feels like the end of the world but we go on. Things will get better. Glad you were able to get some of this off your mind. lol gail
Hallarious woman over 50 ,CD ,IBS 27 years--resection,fistula's,obstructions,and still gail

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Date Joined Apr 2005
Total Posts : 14995
   Posted 9/18/2008 11:49 AM (GMT -7)   
I suffer with anxiety also. I take Xanax at the first hint of an attack and it stops it dead in its tracks. We have a awesome anxiety/depression board here on Healingwell you might want to visit. Just wanted you to know you are not alone.

Gail *Nanners*
Been living with Crohn's Disease for 32 years.  Currently on Asacol, Prilosec 60 mg, Estrace, Prinivil, Diltiazem, Percoset prn for pain and Calcium.  Resections in 2002 and 2005.  Recently diagnosed with Fibromyalgia and doing tests to see if I have Inflammatory Arthritis or AS.

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Date Joined Apr 2008
Total Posts : 1753
   Posted 9/18/2008 4:42 PM (GMT -7)   
I am SO sorry you are going through all of this. I know it can be so overwhelming sometimes! I completely broke down at school today(no idea what happened..just started shaking uncontrollably and so weak..) and had to leave early...have ended up sitting around with about as much life as a ragdoll for the rest of the day..
I know it's so hard, but I'm glad you can come here to vent and please know we're always here for you!! Things will get better. Just hang in there :) Even the bad things turn to good or I'm of that mind anyway.
20 years old, Diagnosed with severe Crohn's and colitis in May of 2008.
Currently taking:
Prednisone, pentasa, alinia, bentyl, prilosec, tandem plus, and the occasional ultracet
Surgery for ectopic pregnancy(very possibly due to Crohn's inflammation) in July of 2008.
Due to start Imuran September 17 depending on blood results.

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