I hope this post isn't too religous for anyone. If so, mods, feel free to edit.
I just wanted to share something really moving that happened to me today and maybe when we are all feeling down and out about something we will feel better after praying about it.
I was raised Catholic but I am not really practicing anymore. There are some things I believe and somethings I don't. I'm just prefacing my story that I am just a typical young adult, not a preachey type.
So I had a big job interview today for a clerkship position in my state's supreme court. I had been a little nervous but also felt very prepared. I took a xanax the night before to help sleep but nothing this morning or all day. Last nights xanax was .25 so not still in effect. Crohns has given me some anxieties that really make it a lot worse. I was just hoping to feel well and not be a nervous wreck and to be confident in my interview and not intimidated by the 4 Justices.
Well throughout the day I had this strange sensation that someone was watching over me, telling me what to do. "Just work on this memo, don't worry about the interview." Just eat some yogurt so you don't feel too hungry. Just take one more immodium, just in case. On and on. It was like I was thinking outside of my body. As I got to my interview I had a huge dirt stain on the foot of one of my nylons from my car. I didn't care. When I arrived the bathrooms were so far away and I had to ring two doorbells to get to the waiting area of the interview. I wasn't nervous, I didn't have to poop or pee. Which for me is unreal.
As I felt the excitement rather than feeling anxiety I felt something tell me to open my notebook and review my resume, read some notes I had taken for the interview, etc. The interview went GREAT!! I then interviewed without notice with 2 law clerks. I didn't even worry about being late for class or the client interview I had after. I still didn't have to use the bathroom. My mouth was dry from the meds but I politely asked if anyone would mind if I had some of my water. No worries.
Anyway, when I left I was noting this weird presence that had been with me all day and thought, gee, I wonder if people had been praying for me.
I got home and I had an email from my mother in law that said "I hope your interview went well, I said a lot of prayers for you today." I also know my parents and husband are big prayers. I am just overwhelmed that I sensed the effect of the prayers and in fact people had been praying for me.
So when you feel down or like you can't help someone you love, say a prayer. Even the non-believers might feel the presence.
26 Year old married female law student (last year!!). Diagnosed w/ CD 4 years ago, IBS for over 10 years before that, which was probably the CD. I am sort of lactose intollerant too but can handle anything cultured and do well w/ lactose pills and lactaid. For crohns I am currently on Pentasa 4 pills/4x day and hysociamine prn. I also have bad acid reflux and have been on PPI's since age 13. I have been through prilosec, prevacid, and nexium. Currently I am on Protonix in the morning and Zantac at night. I also take a birth control pill to allow some fun in my life.