You are going through so much right now, not having anxiety would be the strange thing! Also, I see my docs a lot too... If you need to, you need to!
RE: anxiety - I have taken Ativan (lorazepam) at bedtime (only .5mg) whenever I am feeling anxious. I do not feel any real anxiety during the daytime, these days, but nightime hits hard. If I wake to a weird feeling or whatever, my mind spins.
I was taking the .5 of Ativan and starting to feel like I needed to bump my dose. So I saw my pcp, talked at great length and she started me on 25mg of trazedone at night. I've only used it twice, and so far I have no review of it. I guess it's an anti-depressant with sedative qualities. It's used in lower doses for sleep issues.
Take care of you! It's great that you recognize all you're going through and taking steps to get help. Hang in there!
--40 year old female, dx as UC in '04 (1st symptoms in '03), switched to Crohn's in '05, 1 fistula, crohn's colitis, limited to large intestine
--rejected (reaction/didn't work): Asacol, AZA, 6-MP, MTX, Remicade, Humira, prednisone
--methylpred - finally off 6/15/08, tried Prochymal in Phase III study (can't wait til it's approved!)
--started Tysabri 3/21/08
--single mom to 10-yr-old girl