Yeah, I'm really thinking about what can occupy my time for five days, cross my fingers its not any longer. I was thinking about bringing my ds, and stop by gamestop the day before pick up a new game and gaming magazines, I'm really into video games. I'm just really nervous right now I'm trying to avoid preperation for the stay as long as possible but I know its the inevitable. I'm just really nervous about being put to sleep, I hate anasteshia, just the thought of something putting me to sleep freaks me out, makes me fee like I won't wake back up. Just nervous. My first colonoscopy I went completely out, but then I thought I woke up in excrutiating pain, then I was held down by the nurse and went out again. I guess this is what scares me. My second colonscopy I thought I was supposed to go completely out again but, I heard the doc say "Okay Stephon, I'm going to start now. I was like wait I'm not sleep in my mind, Couldn't say nothing really but a mrmur like okyyy. Then I was in pain not unberable pain, but barely bearable, it felt like there was a lot of pressure in my stomach and the soreness of crohn's, really freaked me out. But I was barely conscious, but I could understand everything the doc and nurse was saying to me, like look up at the screen. I was like uhh yeah. All I remember is everyhting in a twilight slow motion type thingy. All in all I'm really afraid of being put to sleep, if the doc could do it while I am conscious I would do it in a heart beat. I'm just the type to like to know what's going on with me at all times.