First of all, calm down and BREATHE! Keep in mind that many people who post on these forums are here precisely because of the severity of their condition. This doesn't mean that you'll experience the same problems. Rather than stress yourself out with the fear of coming down with the same symptoms that many of us have, use our experiences as a way to stay vigilant and remember that each case is different.
Being that you have Crohn's, unfortunately, it's to be expected that you flare up every now and then. During these times it's best to keep a food journal to know what bothers you when you're flaring, what you can tolerate so you can maintain your health, and never hesitate to ask your doctors any questions. There are places like this that you can post and there will always be someone to help, and there are places you can call.
As for your insurance, I can't help too much there, but I do know that there are programs that will help assist people with chronic illnesses that are having difficult in getting health coverage. I know that COBRA is expensive, but I've heard it's helped many people get the assistance and medical treatment that they need.
And the hospital bills...well, that's what our lot gets. I don't know a single person with Crohn's who doesn't owe someone money. I already have three bills gone into collections, and I owe at least $20,000.00. All of this from eight months of being diagnosed and sick at 19 years old!
You just need to sit back and breathe, take care to remember the things that you get done, and work at it slowly.
I understand this is very frightening, but there are many things that can be done to help. I know a lot of us complain, and that's perfectly OKAY because you need to! But I think in the end we're all all right despite our hardships. "What doesn't kill you makes you stronger" has never been more true.
20 years old, Diagnosed with moderate to severe Crohn's and Colitis in May of 2008.
Prednisone 30 mg, pentasa 2 pills 4x a day, bentyl as needed, prilosec in the morning, tandem plus, humira every other week, and good probiotics.
Surgery for ectopic pregnancy most likely the result of severe Crohn's inflammation in July of 2008.
Attempting the specific carbohydrate diet. Cheated once for Christmas.
"He who has a why to live for can bear with almost any how."