It's been a while since I've posted. I really only try to post when I am feeling good and things are doing well. It's just not happening for me in the last few months. My Cd is relatively calm actually. I have a fissure and the big ole tags are still an issue. No major gut pain though and not sprinting to the potty any more than usual.
My problem is I am so unbelievably down. You would think that working from the house would be fantastic for a CD person. Well, having my own bathroom is good, but it is soooooo lonely & empty feeling here. And I am leaving the house less often. When I do go out, I have to pretend I am having fun. I hated the holidays, I hate my job, my resume was ignored since April last year, my husband is not helping, my Dad turned 80 this week and is talking about dying & the sadness about not haiving a child is still there. Every time I feel like I am about to turn a corner, something else knocks me back. I also found out that my big deficiency of D can cause depression.
Thanks for letting me dump. It is so much cheaper than paying for a counselor. I know what i have to do to fix this....just how to go about it hmmmmmm if only I could get a new job that would be the best way to move on.
Dx'd '90 (emergency rupture), symptoms ignored long before that, '03 fistulas and bad flagyl reactions, B12 weekly, Pentasa [until I surrender to the bigger meds]
I'm riding on the escalator of life....