Thank you all for the supportive responses and suggestions. I probably do need some sort of councilling to tell the truth, but I'm just not the type for it, and would never likely consider it. I'm sure there are many that would benefit from that once they get so consumed by something and can't sleep or live normally anymore, or feel without hope.
I've always been kind of the hope springs eternal type, but feel that life is kind of like the Perfect Storm movie right now.
As far as doing something for myself, I just don't feel like it to be honest. I wish I didn't feel this way but...
The hard part for me is, that my daughter was feeling great, thriving, excelling at her sport, doing well in high school, then one week later, she's in a Hospital bedridden for 10 days. I actually thought she was going to be able to stay on the managable side of this disease, and have a great life, with maybe a couple ups and downs. I can see now that I was just insulating myself, and that I didn't have a realistic view.
I'd better wrap this up, as I can see I'm getting way too long again. I hope I'm not coming accross like I'm coming unglued or anything like that. I'm just maybe depressed or down or just haven't got to a certain place with all this yet, that my perspective will be better to handle it all. Hopefully it will come.