Thanks Nanners. I'm trying to be realistic for my aunts sake. There's PLENTY they can do. My uncle HAS tons of money (if the bleeper would stop gambling it all into the casinos). I think she needs to talk to someone to help her get more positive about her situation. So WHAT if she has any type of ostomy. SHE told me a person lives past that (back when I was scared of ending up with one). Her mom died from it. I'm just hoping she can get some positive feelings going. I know she's got to be scared. I know what its like to be scared that its cancer. To be scared that I'm going to die by the time they figure out whatever the heck is wrong with you. I want to help her but I also want to give her the distance she may be needing right now.
Also...YEAH...I have insurance. I saw a doctor. I need to talk about seeing a shrink. I'm trying to give a quick update like ya'll care about my talkative butt :-P. I am feeling better now. The doctor changed the tramadol after I had such a bad headache for yesterday and the day before. It was awful. Light sensitive, sound sensitive, etc. Migraine city. I'm on hydrocodone now. So, I'm being careful with those. I actually remembered to order my pentasa early. The insurance will cover my pre-existing condition in October so that's when I'll have my first follow-up colonoscopy. Today I'm not freaked about how I'm going to deal with it all. I can move with minimal pain (yes, my knee and elbow and back still ache a bit fiercely). I'm not scared at this moment of what more my body will put me through. I do get scared sometimes of what the constant pain has done to my thinking sometimes. I was really scared of myself for a long time. I guess I'm lucky to have such good defense mechanisms in place from when I LAST had psychological counseling.
I'll still be around...I just wanted to thank everyone on here too. You all helped keep me alive and sane. Uh oh...I'm getting all teary-eyed...silly hormones. Thanks anyways everyone.
27/f/CD. 4 CD related surgeries: 2 resections, 2 JP drains, 3 NG tubes, many absesses (including the one my most recent surgery scraped off my ovary) and fistulas.
Currently trying to figure out hip and knee joint pain.
Have lost in these surgeries: appendix, 8 in. intestine, R fallopian tube, gallbladder, 10 in. intestine
Crohns Dx'd: February 2008.
Pentasa (and much mental screaming)
Trying to hang in there until January so I'll have some insurance and can visit a rheumy, neuro, GI, primary, pain control, and possibly a shrink so I could stop crying and living in my own lil pity party. :-P