Haven't been around much. Tired a lot. Typing tends to hurt a lot as well. My first year's appointment is up (from being diagnosed). I don't have the money to pay back the GI bill from when I had my fourth surgery. They gave me a month's worth of pentasa. I'm on 32 hours of work a MONTH due to scheduling. I'm being sued for a medical bill I never knew I had from 2004. I hurt all the time and the rheumy appointment is still off in April. This I've learned in the past 24 hours. YAY. I'm sitting here, crying...and hurting in my heart. Should NEVER have watched SiCKO the other night for the first time. Watching that and then getting slammed like this...I feel broken. All Humpty-Dumpty and there's no way to put it all back together again. To top it off, I'm flaring this morning something awful and I've run out of Ensure. I just feel so done. Done with it all. I'm ranting and I try not to rant or think about anything but good things lately. But I just can't right now. I can't afford to see the GI when it isn't covered by the insurance my hubby got through his work until October when it WILL be covered. I'm only making $200-300 a month. I'd get another job if I honestly thought I could do MORE work. What work I do, exhausts me by the end of a four hour shift and when I work eight hours, I hurt so bad, I don't know what to do. Because we went for the more expensive health insurance plan, my husband is making about $500 each check and he gets paid every two weeks. I've been feeling those awful depression feelings and I just...what the hell can I do? Awwww...C'MON...I think I've got menstral cramps too.
27/f/CD. 4 CD related surgeries: 2 resections, 2 JP drains, 3 NG tubes, many absesses (including the one my most recent surgery scraped off my ovary) and fistulas.
Currently trying to figure out hip and knee joint pain.
Have lost in these surgeries: appendix, 8 in. intestine, R fallopian tube, gallbladder, 10 in. intestine
Crohns Dx'd: February 2008.
Pentasa (and much mental screaming)
Trying to hang in there until January so I'll have some insurance and can visit a rheumy, neuro, GI, primary, pain control, and possibly a shrink so I could stop crying and living in my own lil pity party. :-P