You folks are so amazing! Thanks for all the thoughts and wishes. I was feeling so down on Monday, I felt that after all I had been through...enough! Right?? GRRR. Thankfully I have a wonderful husband who sat with me on Monday night while I cried my eyes out and then he got on the internet and started a search for a "bum valve" as he calls it! LOL. Funny thing is, he FOUND one, in Japan! Am going to head to the ostomy boards!!
Anyway, again, thanks for letting me un-load.
pb4- Thanks for that advice!! I have the gastro. from hell. Really, she is horrible. Just really mean, no patient/bedside manner. At evert appoint. she ask's me a ton of questions, only to ask me the same question's the next time she see's me. Re: wanting kids vs having a ostomy...bla bla bla.
Gachrons- I'll keep everyone updated for sure! LOL. Im just going to have to get used to a new riding position on my bike we think. *grin*
Wolfie- What you wrote was not harsh. I totally agree and 99% of the time I keep an up-beat attitude about everything happening with me. Unfortunately Monday was a BAD day for me. I've delt with my thoughts and feelings and thank you for sharing yours.
Roor- I am sooo sorry! I however am done University, am married to a wonderful man and have the 2 best Pugs EVER. My life in all aspects except for the Crohn's is amazing. There is too much damage to my rectal muscles from fistula's et al. to be considered for a J-pouch surgery. However, I will ask the doc for sure. Good luck with your studies! I was 21 and in school when this hit, I feel for you!!!
RX Crohn's 1999, over 30 surgeries, 3 strokes, still kickin!!
"The most unfortunate thing that happens to a person who fears failure is that he limits himself by becoming afraid to try anything new."