Just have to vent for a minute. I called up one of my best friends today because I feeling just a little depressed. I've been under alot of stress latley and as a result, my crohn's has flared up.... every day for about 2 weeks now. We ran some errands together and she asked me what I was depressed about and I told her that my crohn's has been bothering me.. just getting kind of sick of feeling sick, ect. She looked at me and said, Heather, you have everything, you always get what you want, your family is weathy, you're pretty, you're skinny. I don't get what the deal is, why are you depressed. I was so pissed, my reply was, that doesn't take away the fact that I have a chronic disease that cannot be cured and it doesn't take away the fact that I feel like crap everyday. I'd rather be dirt poor. I was stunned only because she's a nurse, and I suppose I just expected more understanding, and the fact that I get everything I want and that my dad is wealthy is completely untrue. We all work hard for what we have. Ugh. I often feel bad for my dad. He has a good job and worked hard to get where he is. I feel bad when I have to pick up my medications every month.... theres about $800, when he has to renew health insurance every year... all the doctors visits, the time, ect. We've had to cut back on things at home... as I'm sure everybody has had to do. I guess I just expected more. I feel so alone sometimes.
BUTTTTTT on a happy note, I was at my GI doc office, and they had this magazine that just came out called, CROHN'S ADVOCATE. Its all about Crohn's, features questions, real life issues, ect. FINALLY! I was so thrilled! I signed up for the complimentary subscription! I would highly recommend it!
-Heather, 23 yrs. old
- Crohns disease since 1995, officially diagnosed in 2003.
- Bowel resection in Dec. 07, Crohns reoccurred July 08.
- Medications - Entocort 9mg, Wellbutrin SR 150mg, Lexapro 20mg, Bentyl 10mg, Levsin, Trazadone 50mg, Humira