Crohn's metamorphosis

My body:    Once stong, active and attractive,

                   Now frail, weak, and unsightly

                   Once healthy and capable

                   Now diseased and immobile

My mind:     Once sharp, witty, and carefree

                   Now haunted with shadows of fear and uncertainty

                   Once inquisitive, confident, and open

                   Now cynical, unsure, and angry

   One might say I'm still the same person I used to be to comfort me that I'm still valuable, but they don't live inside this body. They don't experience 24 hours a day the aches and pains and nausea and weakness and fear of what the future holds for a deteriorating body wracked with Crohn's disease. They don't feel the side effects of powerful drugs that offer little help. This disease had a beginning so there must be an end.  

I wish I could express myself better. That is it!! Thanks for sharing and I'm showing it to some people who need to understand better. God bless you in your struggles and victories.