Thank you for your responses. I've hit the Acceptance Stage finally. I went to management with my concerns and we agreed that I will train someone to be my supervisor so I can have a more flexible schedule and not be the only administrator in charge of proposals and high priority items.
I believe I'm going into remission but I'm still having severe joint pain, fatigue and headaches so full days arent going to work for me for a while yet. Or going back to school part-time, being a member of Chamber of Commerce, ACA fundraising,etc. Lucky I found out my parents owe me a ton of money from a settlement years ago, so I've been guilting them into paying me a couple hundred a month so I can keep the apartment and fight through these medical bills.
Thanks again for being here and being so responsive. Hopefully long-term I'll eventually get back to full-time and stay in remission long enough to be the busy body I was once. Its nice that most of you seem happy with decisions that you made to live your lives, with sacrifice. ((((hugs)))))