MMMNAVY, I'm so sorry you're in so much pain. It sounds like you really do need some help to manage it. Pain can certainly cause you to be very down on yourself. Pain management in my opinion is an integral part of surviving any chronic illness, especially crohn's. You need better quality of life. Can you not find a doctor who will care about the quality of life you have?
I hope your primary care physician will be more understanding and give you some pain killers to pull you through these tough times.
As for the expired tag, please try to be not so hard on yourself. If it makes you feel any better, last year, I was stopped for not having the sticker on. I just forgot to stick it on . . .oops. My husband was in the hospital, and I totally forgot about it - there was absolutely nothing wrong with me. It happens . . . no reason to beat yourself up. Also, I've been reading this book, which I think is helping me deal with this better. It's called "Everywhere you go there you are" by Jon Kabat-zinn. I of course, am just a reader, and I am not trying to sell this book or anything - if you local library has it, check it out, and see if it can help you get your brain in a better place.
I hope you find some relief soon.
Husband with Crohn's
Diagnosed March 2003 Ulcerative Proctitis
Diagnosed March 2008 Crohn's & C-diff, hospitalized 45 days
Canasa, Lialda, Remicade, VSL#3, Florastor
In Remission since June 2008
Stopped vancomycin for c-diff Jan 1 2009
C-diff free, until Sep 2, 2009
Fighting c-diff, I guess for life