Thank you everyone for your support, advice and ideas.. I am overwhelmed by all your responses ((((((((((((everyone))))))))))))))
I am hanging in there.... After I told him I wanted a divorce, we got into a HUGE fight.. he even sunk to the level of calling me a ****ty wife... It was horrible, I don't like fighting.. eventually I got to the point where I couldn't take it anymore and got up, told him I don't want to ever hear one more negative thing out of his mouth about
me or anyone else again, and went to my room and shut the door... He came in about
an hour later... He had been crying his eyes out and wrote me a note, saying how he doesn't want me to leave, he'll quit using, and would even go to counseling with me if that would help, he wanted to take care of me and help me to get well.. HUH????
Well, if that was the first time I heard all that I might have fallen for it.. But I've heard him say he'll do this or that, and it never happens. So, I'm still planning on going through with a divorce.. although right now he's been nicer to me than he's ever been.. lol.. I have a line on a place that's only about
45 minutes from where I live now and I can live there in exchange for taking care of about
10 horses.. Feeding once a day and cleaning stalls once a day for 6 horses... The owner will feed once a day so I don't have to worry about
2 feedings a day, only one. I can bring my horse and 2 dogs with me and I am going to meet this woman on Sunday after Church... So... I've gotten the main problem solved hopefully.. A place to live... My really good friend knows this woman and says she's really nice and is pretty sure that we will hit it off.. So that is a huge relief.. :)
Hopefully things keep going in a positive direction... Thank you again everyone :)
My symptoms are doing ok.. still have some pain, but feeling ok for the most part... Thank GOD...
Diagnosed with Ulcerative Colitis January 31st, 2005, Testing for Crohn's 3/10
Canasa, Rowasa, Lialda, Apriso, Prednisone, 1 infusion of Remicade.. none of those worked for too long... Had neurological complications from the Remicade...
Pentasa 2000mg 2x a day, Entocort 9mg daily, Nexium 40mg once a day, Wellbutrin 150mg once a day. Culturelle 2x a day, Xanax as needed and Ambien at night for sleep..