well its another bad day with my leg pain. im in remission after 2 months of taking humira but with one thing getting fixed another problem starts.
my legs ache everyday and im sik of it. i take pain killers for the pain and my husband massages me with pure olive oil to relax me but its to much to handle.
i feel so down knowing another month has passed and im still not pregnant. :( i just started elevit to boost my body but its my weight that concerns me. as i got diagnosed with crohns at 16 but had it since 15 my body didnt develop much and im underweight. i weigh 4 kilos now and im not allowed to go on medication to put on weight.
another thing that crushes me is that i feel pregnant 2 years ago to my husband (was my boyfriend back then) after i had my resection. but had a abortion due to serious family problems . sometyms i think im getting punished for having the abortion and im never going to have the blessing of the baby i dream of almost every night.
i cry everyday wondering why?? why cant i have a painless day and be fit enough to have a baby.
i dont want to wait till i have a resection to try to fall pregnant as alot of women have to much scar tissue and cant or something could go wrong then there goes my chance.
life sux sometyms but today im really over it.
21yrs old have had crohns disease since 2003
previous meds include pentasa imuran prednisone budesinide remicade and plenty more that havent worked :)
currently on humira 20mg every 2weeks
1 operation to date removed 30cm of bowel and 1 fistula
trying to get pregnant (fingers crossed) :)))