I am feeling you brother. Hang tuff.
I don't try to surpress my feelings but it seems like I am often numb. I think to myself where are my emotions? When I was so desperately sick in February and early March it seemed like I cried all the time, usually from depression mixed with pain. I am doing a lot better now but still feel completely licked. Can't travel. I used to like to hike to remote places and lakes to fish but I am afraid that the physical stress will cause my flare to get worse. It has happened before, when I was relatively healthy. Nothing else seems like fun to me and even the fishing I am not sure about. (another sign of depression?)
At least we understand that we are depressed, because of chronic illness. I think that is half the battle. Professional counsel might be a good idea if it gets to be too much to handle on your own. Give yourself a break too. You aren't a freakin super hero, just a guy fighting a tough tough battle. Maybe not endless though. Lots of technology on the horizon. I AM optimistic for a cure despite 35 years of illness.
Post Edited (FunGuy) : 4/21/2010 8:06:54 AM (GMT-6)