Well the good news, you can start MTX. It really is the only thing that has even remotely worked for me so far (the injections not the pills).
I know you are concerned about
the fertility side effects (which are suppose to be out of you system within a few months and this is an old med, so that is fairly relible info), but I think being able to help care for the child you already fathered is more importanted right now then worrying about
if you can father children in the future. I assure you the state will give priority to your "first" family. You got to get priorities straight man. It is more important to take care of the child you have now, then any worry about
whether or not your can father children in the future (especially given how much damage your already have to your abdomen). Futhermore you might want to think about
if you should really be fathering any more children if you cannot help care for them. I assure you are not alone in being worried about
these issues. It is a concern for all of us, but I think the priority that the state usually takes is pretty clear that you take care fo the children you have in existance right now.
I think a seperation is a good idea in that it is difficult to care for her to care for both you and a child. She too only has so much life energy to give (because pregnancy needs recovery time too, and hers will be slowed by childcare and ill husband care) and who does that energy really need to go to? It is extrodinately difficult and hard to do both.
It sounds like you have some emotional needs not being met too, both within yourself and in your relationship. Being ill really does a number on your self esteem, confidence, it really does effect every part of your life. I think getting some professional help is a really good idea, because these are issues that effect your mind/body connection and all states of your well-being.
Good Luck and Take care of Yourself,
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