hi Miss Cris... I just want to send a hug your way! You've been through *so* much! I can understand the fear of the scar. I feel like I have that streak in me too. But, I also know that, in time, you might well look at your scar as a sign of your strength. It will fade, as someone said above, and many people end up with various scars. My closest friend had a brain aneurysm in his mid-20s - had to have brain surgery. It saved his life - but he's got a scar wrapped around his head. And, since he's bald now, it's right there. You know what? I knew him for a couple of years before I even *noticed* it. And it was right there. It wasn't until he pointed out his own insecurity about
it that i really looked. But, it's a sign of his life being saved.
Hang in there... You are strong, clearly! I believe you will pull through this. But, you should also go easy on yourself. We all feel scared ... and we'd all be frightened of a new scar from our recent surgery. Everything you're feeling is so natural to be feeling. Allow yourself to grieve your scar-free belly. Then look for the signs that you can associate with the new feature to tell its tale.
I sure hope you feel better soon! Good thing they caught all of that!
1 fistula with two tracts, crohn's colitis, limited to large intestine
Compounded budesonide 3mg/daily, Cimzia. Dx Osteoporosis 10/08 started Forteo 1/27/09
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