thanks guys, no sunday tlc's for me.
I've discovered a few things about myself this weekend, which i'm unhappy about. Hopefully this weekend will be a stepping stone to helping me sort myself out. Mum's fella has left, and i can finally relax. A really bad thing happened to me when i was young, and it has damaged something fundamental inside of me. I have no trust in people. Most people have this basic trust in people and they can take them at face value. I cant. I dont trust my mum's new fella, and i wont trust him until he proves that i can trust him.
Mum has tried to tell me to just accept him at face value but i just cant. I asked mum for a few things this weekend so i could feel safe. She didnt have time to do them. We've talked, and i have cried alot. I think we have figured a couple of things out, so hopefully when he comes back next weekend i'll feel safer and better.
I'm just so disappointed. I really thought i was over it. I knew i still had stuff hanging about, like i'm clostrophobic and if i'm in a bed with some-one, i have to be on the outside.
Sorry for the essay, i think i'm just exhausted and need to get everything back out so i can go back over it.
Hugs to Ivy, hope you start to feel better tomorrow
Dx - Crohn's (2006), Depression (2010)
Currently - Humira fornightly, iron infusion weekly, B12 3 monthly, prenatal vits+minerals, 15mg prednisolone, calcium supplement, mirtazapine
Tried - aza, pentasa, questran, infliximab
No crohns' surgeries to date, Episcleritis for 3 weeks x 2, pains in hands, wrists, hips, lower back, knees and ankles
Allergic to Infliximab
Was at uni, but have paused the course to try to figure out my health!