I finally got to see a co lorectal surgeon yesterday. He took a look at the CT scans of my abscess in my sigmoid, and told me he is planning to remove the diseased area in the new year. It is also narrowed in the area as well so it is for the best. In the meantime I have to have a barium (both ends) yuk. No chance of earlier surgery as this is the NHS
I feel off colour all the time and it constantly feels like Im coming down with something, a couple of times a week, mainly at night I will feel like I have a virus, (hot, achy, tired, generally rubbish)
I am 15 stone 5 and am rather overweight for 5'2. I am not one of those crohnies with weight loss. I want to lose weight but struggle to diet because I eat a low residue diet, I react badly to fruit and veg. However, I read that with diverticular disease (which I have) I should eat a high fibre diet. I really cant win.
No one really gets it --- I look so well, so everyone tells me. No one knows how I really feel. My partner has crohns and isnt always feeling that good, he spent a week in hospital in May. He is a very positve person but I find it hard to be so. I am already on anti depressants.
I find it so hard just to cope with everyday life, going to work is so hard, so are chores. I hardly ever feel like going out but will usually force myself for fear of my friends getting fed up of me cancelling, which I have done a lot in the past.
My partner says I may as well just tell him when I feel well rather than when I feel ill because Im always ill. Why doesnt he get that I just want a pat on the bag and him to say there, there. He looks after and cares for me in more ways but at the moment I just crave sympathy.
Im sick of been me and of always been ill. SOmetimes I am strong but not at the moment. Everything seems hard
I want so much to be normal.... whatever that is.
Sorry for the moan