Good thoughts heading your way.
Sniper writing it down is one of the best things to release some of that yuck!
But...am I the only one that found it ironic that the waters are a concern to you and you wrote your guts were "tide" in knots. I think that your inner troubles just came out in your spelling....so keep typing away and let the dread come through the keys!
Wishing you less dark nights and glowing warm days.