I have decided that if the doc agrees with me, to return to work on October 17th. But I am wondering if I am developing some anxiety about
this return. The reasoning behind this thought is that I beleive my job is what caused this latest flare. I have been at this job for over 22 years, and earlier this year they started changing all our systems, so much so, that you feel like its the first day on the job. All these changes were very stressful for me, as well as my coworkers. Its so hard to do my job now, I could do things in my sleep and now with these new systems, it takes so much longer becuz you have to figure out which system to use. One of my bosses called me to wish me Happy Birthday on Sunday and was telling me that ANOTHER new system was rolled out this past weekend. So now I have another new program to learn.
I am feeling some anxiety the past few days, and it has made me feel not so hot. I do have Xanax to take on those bad days and have been taking at least one a day for the past 3 days. Also, as I told you in an earlier post, my BIL passed and I was running helping my hubby and his sister and my Cd behaved the whole time. I am also wondering if my body is reacting now that the crisis has abated.
If I didn't have this darn truck pymt I would have called it a day and tried for permenant disability. My body likes the fact that I can lay down when I want, and rest as needed. But becuz of the truck pymt I have to try to hang on for at least another 2-3 years.
Any tips on how to handle this anxiety? I hate having to lean on these pills, but they are helping to get thru. Hugs!
Gail*Nanners* Co-Moderator for Crohns Disease
Crohn's Disease for over 35 years. Currently on Asacol, Prilosec, Estrace, Prinivil, Percoset prn for pain, Zofran, Phenergan, Probiotics, Calcium, Vit D, Folic Acid and Xanax prn. Resections in 2002 & 2005. Also diagnosed w/ Fibromyalgia, Osteoarthritis, & Anxiety. Currently my Crohns is in remission, but my joints are going crazy!