So I have been fighting my fistula's again. It's the worse it has ever been and I now have an abcsess in my outer lady parts. I have never felt such a horrific pain. The doctor added a third seton a week ago that isn't working and yesterday he jabbed me with a large needle to draw a culture.
I am wondering what I have done in life to deserve this horrible condition. Normally I am so proud of myself because I think I handle it pretty well but lately I am just in so much pain and so uncomfortable it feels like torture. So, what have I done in life to deserve to feel like this and to have my life disrupted? I haven't killed anyone, I never cheated on anyone or stole. I will give you that I can be a major B!*@H when I am in a lot of pain and my poor husband generally gets the brunt of it but is that enough to deserve this level of pain?
Does anyone else ever feel like this?