Posted 1/10/2013 7:36 PM (GMT -6)
For almost two weeks, I have had a stomach flare up and still do. I saw my GI on Tuesday and he upped the doses of famotidine in addition to nexuim to 200 mg/day to push reflux down. He also told me to return to reflux diet. So, I told him I only eat six items so he shouldn't worry. That said I started reflecting on my diet and how it affects my life esp. energy and concentration.
As I said I'm on a restricted diet and I did that not my GI as I found excluding a lot of food to relieve my intestines. But this is not satisfying. I start to compare myself to my colleagues. I even compare myself against myself 6 or 7 years ago.
I work at a college where my colleagues and I are almost of the same age; in our thirties. On Tuesday, as I reduced my Crohn's meds to relieve the GERD, I flared up. It was important to go to work and I was suffering severely from nonstop D and severe abd pain. When I have pain, this shows on my face and people keep asking me if I'm ok. Add up, when pain hits, I can't concentrate well. I even apologized to my boss when she was talking to me as I couldn't keep up w what she was saying. All people know about my disease.
My problem is I can hardly concentrate and I keep struggling. My last blood picture was border line coz of ensure. That was more than 4 months ago. I think if I repeat it now the results will be lower. Also I stopped all the multivitamins in the signature coz of increased gastritis and GERD.
Lack of vitamins is really giving me hard times. I have colleagues who have got even cancer but they do eat well. Of course, I do sympathize w them and they are even friends but I do suffer. Why does this disease rip off all the nutrients and vitamins one needs? I hate it when my boss excludes me from a task (I'm a workaholic btw) coz I'm sick. I used to cry before when people undermined me but now I have to accept it and think in a positive way that they want to help.
Whenever I complain to my GI, he prescribes new multivitamins. These do not do anything anymore. I can't reach the level of concentration and energy I used to have before I was diagnosed w IBD (Crohn's first and now indeterminate colitis w inclination towards Crohn's as I have persistent incurable proctitis). I don't know what to do. Is it like that? Should I live w/o energy till the end of my life? When I take B injections, they boost my energy for some time and then I lose this effect very quickly.
Any advice will be highly appreciated. Thank you for listening.