I was just thinking of posting to you to see how you are doing. I'm glad to see you're out of the hospital. It does sound like you will likely be going through a bit of an adjustment period. I'm sure this must be very taxing on you, but I hope you can keep looking ahead. I know that a few months down the road, things will be much better for you.
Can you imagine if you didn't have the surgery, and a year from now you could be much worse off. I can understand the anxiety you're having, but hopefully it will resolve as you start to feel better and more secure with things.
Please keep us all informed. Good luck in the coming weeks.