Sci....I can not speak from being a Mom, but I can speak from the position of someone who puts others first. I know you have prayed on this, but I hope you will continue to consider ending breast pumping. I am worried about you. It seems you and your baby have bonded and you have been there for her so much even at your sickest. I hope you can heal yourself to make your future time with the little one even more enjoyable.
Please know that cycles do break and there is a time for you. Take care.