Posted 10/28/2015 5:52 PM (GMT -7)
I simply couldn't work anymore. As a teacher, it's all or nothing. It had been rough at the end of the school year. I got c. diff., an abscess that turned into a fistula, c. diff. again, and then the antibiotics temporarily damaged my inner ear and I couldn't stand up. I missed the last two months of the school year. The next school year started with me on a feeding tube from random pancreatitis as a side effect of imuran, so I couldn't even get to the classroom until November. Then 6 weeks later, over Christmas break, my pregnancy got really bad (I had been on the pill but don't absorb medications well lol). I had to get daily IV fluids in order to stay hydrated because I was too sick and my Crohn's was majorly flaring. At that point, I realized I was doing my students more harm than good. So I talked to the principal and we hired a sub full-time. My daughter was born the following summer, and then two months later was when I went septic the first time. In 5 months, I was hospitalized 10 times. I couldn't even take care of my infant, let alone get into a classroom.
We had to move to another state to be by my parents so my mom could help with my daughter. My husband's company, thankfully, allowed him to keep his job and let him telecommute. He flies back once a month for a week, but works from home the rest of the time. It was a true miracle from God that his employers have been so understanding.
By this point, I would do my family, myself, and students more harm than good by trying to work. I taught math, so a messed up year for students was awful. I nearly died several times. Exposing myself to stress like that, plus all the germs, wasn't worth the risk of infections (therefore antibiotics, therefore c. diff., flares, more abscesses and sepsis, etc.). Even if I was in total remission, the stress and exhaustion of teaching would mean not spending time with my family in the evenings because I wouldn't be able to give them any more. I decided that my priority was my family. I wasn't going to give them up for someone else's kids. So I still tutor some neighborhood kids a couple of times a week and it takes care of the itch I have for teaching, but I am so much happier and feel a lot more balanced.
CD, gastroparesis, fibro, arthritis, GERD
"For this thing I besought the Lord thrice that it depart from me. He said, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities; I take pleasure in infirmities, reproaches, necessities, persecutions, distresses, for when I am weak, then am I strong." 2 Cor 12