Ugh, I am ready to throw in the towel. I got thrush from breastfeeding (well, pumping) again, and just like lasst time, it went into the milk ducts. A month of Diflucan and it just got worse, just like last time. I think I'm resistant. So the infectious disease doc put in a midline (like a picc but only goes to the shoulder) on Monday and I started daily IV micafungin for 2 weeks. Thankfully they're letting me do it from home so I don't have to get a sitter every day. They also put me on blood thinners since this exact same thing last time gave me a blood clot the day after I got home from the hospital with a picc to finish the month of treatments. Lat time was worse bc I didn't realize I had thrush and it made my Crohn's flare and the pred made the thrush explode and go septic.
Anyway, I digress. The doctor kept forgetting to send in the script
for the blood thinners (a pill) so I didn't start till last night. I'm paranoid with ever twinge in my arm, lol. Plus it itches like crazy, I think the tagaderm must have latex in it or something. But today is day 4 and my breasts feel worse, not better. Anytime milk starts filling up, I feel like I'm being stabbed with hot pokers repeatedly. Pumping until I'm empty is the only relief, but that only lasts for about
45 min until milk starts coming in again. Not a let down, just milk slowly filling up.
I got a Remicade infusion yesterday, and I just feel so rotten today. I have a migraine and my whole body just aches. My parents are out of town for my sister's wedding reception with her in laws (she got married a couple of wees ago), and my adopted brother is with us today (he's 11). I had to take him to and from hippotherapy (horse riding as therapy) and I had no desire to go anywhere. I thought I was going to pass out picking him up and just prayed we'd get home safely.
The last straw was me starting my period today!
It is SO unfair! I am breast feeding and am on the depo provera shot for birth control, and yet I start my period at only 12 weeks post partum?!?! I just want to cry. And my body hurts so bad that the tampon just felt like sandpaper. I gave up after an hour and just used a pad instead, which I despise - I feel like I'm wearing a dirty diaper.
Plus I'm recovering from my husband being away all last week on a business trip. It always weras me out. The last night he was gone, my 2 yo threw up in the middle of the night (overheated from the zoo that day). All over, even on the curtains on the window! Clean up was a nightmare. Poor girl just sobbed, "Oh no, what I do?!" over and over again.
Anyway, tomorrow will be better. My husband watched the kids while he worked and let me sleep all afternoon, so I feel a little more human. I am so grateful he can work from home.