Hey straydog. I'm severely sleep deprived but I'll do my best.
Things are tentatively okay: I've not had another mental breakdown yet >_>. I'm still at the day hospital and finding it a lot more helpful than the psychiatric ward. I actually talk to people here: compared to last week I've become more
talking to the group. We also do a bit of group of therapy every day, e.g. sessions on anxiety, depression, assertiveness, creative writing, relaxation, setting goals. To be honest, I'm not a big fan of CBT, which is what most of the group therapy is: if we were capable of positive thinking no matter what our external circumstances were, none of us would be in a mental hospital. But sometimes the sessions lead to having a genuinely interesting group discussion, which is worth joining in with.
Haven't had an end date set yet, but one woman left today and another is leaving on Friday. The one who is leaving on Friday was really upset by it: she doesn't want to go. I'll be sorry to see her go as well, as I like her.
Also went back to my garden place on Monday: hadn't been there for a few weeks. Bit nervous about
going back, but it went well and it was kind of nice to see the place again. I've been invited to join a woman-only Wednesday session, which is more arts and craft than gardening: I've accepted, but have to see about
So yeah, apart from sleep everything is going okay so far. But my sleep is dire; I'm getting no more than 4-5 hours a night and last night I couldn't have had more than 1-2 hours sleep. I'm okay at the day hospital, but when I come home I feel shattered and lie on the sofa all afternoon. Think I'll take a sleeping pill tonight, I'm that desperate to catch up on some sleep: I have a small number of zoplicone saved up. My GP probably won't replace them when I run out :-/
Also going to re-apply for PIP (a disability benefit). I was in the process of appealing the decision to stop my PIP, but my friend said I should let them know my condition has worsened, which apparently means applying all over again. My heart sank at the thought but apparently I might be able to skip the face-to-face assessment: I hope so. Gonna get in touch with an advocacy organisation as well. And, hopefully, a bereavement organisation...
Still not heard from my family or been in touch with them, but that's probably obvious from the fact I haven't mentioned them until now :-/
@iPoop - Still the first season. It's a shame to hear the second season isn't as good, but that's so often the way tbh. Still it might pick up again in the third.
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