Hey, don't feel bad, and don't feel rushed. I'm just kinda casually browsing the board, so, y'know, I probably wouldn't have noticed if it'd been a few days or what have you. I'm glad you're partaking in fun things (I love Hitchhiker's Guide; it's a great series!)
But yeah, you can talk to a therapist, and the therapist can suggest things, but if all you ever do to work on your issues is in a one-hour block in an office once a month, you're probably not going to progress very far.
It's hard, though, I know. Depression really sucks the life right out of you (and Crohn's makes that worse and your physical well-being worse, too). But even if it's just one small thing you work on... That can make a real difference over time. The hard part is figuring out what small thing to tackle first when you have a lot of large things going on. But once you figure that out, it gets a little easier.
I think you'd be surprised what you can accomplish when you're able to suppress or ignore the "depression" voice that tells you, you can't or why you're wrong, etc. Again, not saying it's easy (it's a constant struggle, actually - sometimes, the depression is so convincing and it's hard to see through the lies).
Mostly, I'm just trying to give you some hope because you sounded so downtrodden and hopeless, and it reminds me a lot of myself in my darker moments. I want you to know that there are things worth fighting for and there's a life, for you specifically (and for all of us), that's worth fighting for.