My Doctor gave me the same thing (i think) little hard enema capsules. She gave the to me for those times when I cant stop my urge to push, but unfortunately I cant not push it out. Sometimes when it is really bad, I'll smoosh it up really good and apply with a q-tip.
sorry if this sounds at all gross..but my doctor said to lay on your stomach and sqeeze your sphincter muscle, hold it for about 10 seconds and then let go, and repeat for a couple of minutes. then the urge to go should disappear. it has worked well for me. hope that helps.
Does that also work on those days where you have the urge to push all the time? Please say yes.