Your post brought tears to my eyes, because it's so true.... I have been struggling with Crohns for the last 9 years, and even now when I go to bed every night I dream of the times I was healthy, and I didn't have to worry about
where the bathroom is. But when the morning comes, everything is just the same and the same..... I keep asking WHY ME whereas the correct question should be WHY NOT ME? People struggle every day with various diseases, even small children, so I keep trying to remind myself that I'm lucky I don't have something more serious. My sister in law is 37 years old and has breast cancer. Now, isn't that unfair? But she has taught me to be optimistic, and to enjoy life to the fullest every day. I have my good days and my bad days, but it's only natural to be sad sometimes.....
Regarding friends, those who don't understand my condition are not considered friends anymore. You are very lucky, like me, that you have a very supportive husband to share your fears with. I don't know where I would be if I didn't have my husband and children.